When he touched the cloud
it was just mist, not cotton.
He hides his dismay.
I promise this Haiku is not indicative of the whole post. I
have been meditating on utopias that we construct and how they are really only
that: a construction of the mind. A man who gave me a ride from Kuruthang to
Bajo from Noorin’s house so I could get my bus asked me “Why are all these
Bhutanese moving to the US? Why do they want to go to your country?” Then, on
Monday I got to meet up with my mother’s friend Mary Beth to get a care package
(and a hot shower!). Her group of travelers marveled at the many beautiful
things they had experienced in Bhutan, but also made mention to some things
that did not seem to fit with the ideal of Gross National Happiness.
Many people build the US up as a place where they can be
happy and get rich, and people also build Bhutan as a place that is free from
social problems due to a governing policy of GNH. Both are unrealistic, and
possibly the people who believe these tales know this deep down. Just as we
know a cloud is simply condensed water vapor without a fixed form, yet idealize
them as fluffy and light as if they were made of cotton candy. Not to dash any
hopes, but I have been INSIDE clouds here, and they are literally just thick
fog (condensed water vapor). Likewise, when people come to the US as
immigrants, often they end up in some of the lowest status and lowest paying
jobs. And when a person travels to Bhutan, they see the beauty, hear the
ideals, but also experience the reality of its social problems.
Nowhere, as far as I have experienced or heard about, is
free of its local flavor of social problems because people are going to create
problems in the course of interacting and living. There is no utopia, it is in
our mind. This is not a hopeless way to look at things. If utopias are a
construction, then we don’t have to go far to find them. We can make them where
we are, or at least begin. Moving to Bhutan will not bring someone happiness,
or even let them experience others being happy. But in Bhutan I can continue
the work of bringing my ideals to life. I can keep aiming for my “utopia” here
as well as at home or wherever I end up next. In Bhutan, my ideals have been
challenged, but not more so than in US. What has been more challenging is
letting go of any notion that simply changing my physical location on the globe
would bring me closer to achieving my ideals. As His Holiness the Dalai Lama
has said, “Physical comfort cannot not bring mental comfort, but mental comfort
can bring physical comfort” (This is not an exact quote, but close. It’s from an interview on NPR’s
On Being).
So, on to some physical comforts! I mentioned Noorin and
Mary Beth, two lovely people I have gotten the chance to visit with in the past
week. Here’s the story:
On Friday night last week, I set off for the Norbu Yangphel
hotel in Chazam, owned by my student Tshering’s family so I could catch a ride to Kuruthang the next
day. Her family is becoming like my second family. At the hotel, I helped with
homework, joked with “the brothers” (cousins, brothers, non-relatives) who work
in the kitchen, made pizza with the kids and brothers, had a dance party in the
kitchen, watched some hilarious Indian dramas with Tshering, and fell asleep
full and smiling in a soft white bed. I got up with the kids and had a fabulous
breakfast of fried rice, compliments of the amazing “brother” chefs. While
eating, a man came in who Ajim Dema (Tshering’s mother) knows, and she asked if
I could ride with him to Bajo (where I could get a taxi to Kuruthang).
Wonderful luck! This was at 7am and the bus that passes from here to Bajo
shows up around 9:30am...or later. On the road, we saw monkeys, the same way you’d see
deer in Minnesota. I was so enthralled that my driving friend stopped his car so I
could take pictures. We arrived in Bajo around 10:30, just in time for me to
hit the bank and post office (get ready for some letters!). Then I headed to
the bus station, reserved a return ticket for the next day, and got a taxi with
a few other people to Kuruthang.
Once in Kuruthang, Noorin, my friend who is teaching there
through BCF, told me to head to the market since she was still teaching class.
(Side note: I got the day off because we had a village Khuru—darts—tournament
at school and my 2 classes that day were cancelled) The market was spectacular
and overwhelming for me, since we have no market anywhere near Rukubji. Piles
of chilies, fresh spring vegetables like ferns, peas, and asparagus, spices, flour,
rice, butter, cheese, and FRUIT!
Even though Noorin had pre-shopped for me in the morning, not knowing when I’d arrive, I filled my
backpack with delicious goods. Wanting to take a picture of the scene, I
looked for my camera, but did not find it. Disappointed, I figured that I left it
in the car with Ajim Dema’s friend. There was nothing I could do about it. I called Madam Dema (teacher at school) to let her know and she said that he’d likely bring it back, though neither she nor Ajim Dema had his phone number. This explains why this post doesn’t have
pictures from any of my recent adventures.
After filling my pack to capacity, I found my way to
Noorin’s school. She welcomed me with a hug (I haven’t had one in so long!) and
a smile. We talked nonstop for the next hour until she had to go oversee a competition. Her school is far larger than mine, with over a thousand students
and fifty staff. She also lives on campus, which I do not. Her quarters are
simple, but well kept and comfortable. It is hot in Kuruthang, a shock for me. In
many ways Noorin’s life is very different from mine in Rukubji, but I was
looking for a rural experience when I applied, and she was not. Noorin taught
on a reserve in Northern Ontario last year, living in a village in a cold
climate, not unlike what I am experiencing. Last year, I taught in a city
at a public middle school of
nearly 600 students, not far off from what she’s experiencing (except she's got the
added factor of being in Bhutan). It is so good to hear her perspective on my
experience since she's had a similar one.
When Noorin returned, we headed out to do some much needed
shopping for me. Like at the market, I was overwhelmed by choices, but was able to find everything on my list thanks to Noorin’s knowledge of the shops and calm
demeanor. I felt like a country mouse. We joked about how strange it will be for me to come back to the US. Noorin also took me to the Evergreen salon where I got
a facial and my hair oiled. I was amazed that the water was hot and running! And then, to have someone massage my head and face was truly luxurious. At the salon, Sarah, another BCF teacher in Gasa,
came to meet us and get her share of TLC. Once we had been pampered, leaving the salon women with effusive thanks and tips, we hunted down
some momos (Sarah’s favorite) and continued catching up. It was cathartic to
talk with people who are experiencing some of the same things, hear their
stories and share my own. We had a lot of laughs.
I also got to skype my family and Joe while at Noorin’s since she
has a DSL connection. My heart both soared and broke seeing and hearing
simultaneously the faces and voices of the people I love most dearly for the
first time in 3 months. As Noorin said, Skype is a double-edged sword. It made
me feel close, yet so far away at the same time. With email and letters,
the distance is comprehensible. However, when you can see someone and hear them, but
cannot reach out to touch them, it becomes incomprehensible.
In the morning, we feasted on banana pancakes (made by me,
the pancake queen), and french press coffee while I loaded up my computer with
entertainment. We headed out to finish my shopping (10kg of rice…), after which
I caught a ride from a contact of Noorin’s. I made it to Bajo in time for the
Phobjika bus, and hopped on with my goods. The bus was packed, but luckily my
seat was #1, next to a kind old Ahgey (grandpa) who sang along with the
driver’s music the whole way, making me laugh and smile, to his delight.
After about 10+ stops along the way to pick people up with their loads, and 4
hours later, I was let off at the junction of the road to Phobjika and
the main lateral road. I waited no more than 5 minutes before a family headed
to Bumthang stopped and picked me up. They let me off at the jackknife turn to
Rukubji where Madam Dema and Miss
Deki helped me lug my rice and vegetables home.
I unloaded in my house feeling rejuvenated in a way I have
not felt in a long time despite my fatigue from traveling. I cannot thank
Noorin enough for her generosity, her listening ears, and her willingness to
let me come and relax at her place. I hope I can make it happen again, and I
also hope she and Sarah will take an opportunity to visit the “country mouse”
out here in Rukubji.
I thought I’d been pampered beyond belief at Noorin’s when I
received a call from my mother’s friend Mary Beth who had come to do a bike tour in
Bhutan. My mother had given her a care package to bring me. Mary Beth’s
group was staying in Phobjika (valley of the Black Necked Cranes, who are now in Tibet for the summer) that night and she invited me to come pick up my
package and stay the night at the hotel. I got approval from the principal and
left to hitch a ride right after school. I rode with a kind forest worker and his kitten all the way to my destination. I met Mary Beth and the other
women she was traveling with through “Woman Tours”. They had traveled for
almost a week, biking through Bhutan. It was a joy to talk with her and the
other women. I got to stay for dinner and take a hot shower, which was over the
top decadent since I haven’t been under hot running water for 3 months. I also
got to unload the wonderful gifts from my family and Joe. I could feel the love
poured into each little gift: books, chocolate, the Planet Earth series,
letters, natural flea remedies (thanks mom!), a shirt, a Minneapolis pin (which
I wear proudly on my toego now), playing cards, earrings… these little things
meant so much because of the obvious care that had been taken in selecting and
getting them to me.
Mary Beth was more than generous. She also gifted me with little, but much needed
things, like socks, snacks, beauty products, and medicine. She and her friend Gaia were quite intrigued by my experiences here, and it was great to share to them
(Mary Beth was a French teacher with my mother). One connection I made was with one of their guides, who knows Ajim Dema, and runs a bike shop in Thimphu. He encouraged me to do the September race from Bumthang to Thimphu. I told him I'd consider if I could rent a bike. That would be quite an experience! I ate breakfast with the group
and then bid them farewell. They were off for a full day of hiking and
biking, and I had to get back to school. Again, feeling full of love and
rejuvenated by company and comforts, I rode to the Lawala pass with the truck
driver for Mary Beth’s group. From there, a high point where yaks roam and high Himalayan peaks are visible in the distance, I walked down to the junction with the
lateral road and waited for a ride. While waiting, I met a French-speaking teacher from ILCS in Trongsa who gave me her contact information and invited me to visit (her car was packed). I caught a car after about 30 minutes with another teacher headed to Trongsa.
After getting home, I got a call from a monk who is
Tshering’s cousin. He had gotten word from Miss Deki that my mother’s first
package had arrived in Thimphu and he informed me that he could bring it to me
on his way home. Finally!
Comfort isn’t everything. In fact, I find I have learned to
appreciate the simplicity of my life. I do not often consider what I might be
“lacking”. When the opportunity arises to get a shower, or even more luxurious, a facial, or eat a piece of
chocolate, it is a real treat. It is
rare and appreciated all the more.
I feel like my birthday has come early. An enormous thank
you to all the hands and hearts that were involved in bringing me so much love
and comfort.
